Dear Ollie

Well things don't always go as planned. I've been in the hospital a week, and I only got to see you for an hour yesterday. Which was wonderful. I still have the feeling of you sitting on my lap, flinging your arms over my neck and just sighing as you looked out the window. I could have stayed like that forever.

We just got off Skype, at least we can say goodnight to each other, and your face just beamed when you saw me. We talked and you got some kicks out of touching my nose. You loved me blowing kisses. I then told you I missed you, that I was still with the doctors and that it was going to be okay. You got sad. You didn't cry or really say anything, but your face got sad. I blew some more kisses and then we said bye bye.

It is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, mentally, to be here and not be with you. Everyone says you won't remember. But I know you will. So will I. But I also know how good we'll feel when I can come home and we're together as a family again. I love you Ollie. I love you so so so very much. And I miss you.

Love,
Mama